01. California Dreamin'

Hi there!
     Everyday is the same. Probably I go bananas.
I like staying at home, but two weeks is too much for me. I feel hopeless being here. It's not about my family, my friends or atmosphere here.
I just feel weird like an alien.



I'm that kind of person who hate changes, but get bored quickly. Maybe it's because I have rough time in my life?
I ended a lot of relationship last time and it's make me sick. Stayin on my own with my minds is very dangerous sport, trust me.
I get up at 11 a.m these days . I eat breakfast which contains one glass of juice and fruits or vegetables. I'm not hungry in the morning. Then, I clean room (make my bed, water the flowers, open a window) and help my grandmother make dinner. Zosia is amazing person, but she complains a lot and it's drive me crazy (did I mention that I'm very nervous person?).
I spent a lot of time with my phone. It's unhealthy, but I don't care about it. Recently I became very selfish person, because I learnt that I should put myself first. It's quite late, but at the end of the day I found out that you have to take care about yourself as best as you can. Maybe I should study philosophy in the future?
In the evening I meet with my friends. We often talk, drink and laugh together. I have known them more than 10 years and it's great that we keep in touch. I can always count on them.
During the day I chat with my friends from dormitory. We support each other in this hard time.
I'm going to do my homework but I'm sooo lazy.
Sitting at home, before matura exam, with bad marks it's not definitely California Dreamin'.
See you soon xo